Todays "aha"-moment and thoughts about demos

I've just watched the first part of the savvy club dvd dec issue and I remembered some things that my instructor told me this summer when I worked there. He asked me to do a small demo of trailerloading since we had practise alot and got the a stage where we could have fun with it. Ofc I got nervous, Im not used to do things in front of people and it's outside of my comfort zone.
He told me that it is important to get as prepared and practise as much as someone who works with horses at a circus would, if you work as a circus-artist you cant hope for things to work or have things that works sometimes but not all the time Everything have to be there every night when the curtains get up.
He also told me to not try to do "spectaculare" things in the meaning of doing things that are fancy but not yet rock solid, I should do things that I would do home on an ordinary day. It's better to show things that we really can and do it well than to try and show off but not make it.And also, if you show something on a "lower level" than what you practise at home you have more space for "oh-oh" and a bigger ground to stand on, if something happens and I get stressed I always fall back on what I've learned and got in my backbone.
I often think of praticing like a circus-artist with her horse, learing everything like running water before showing it to people (even filming auditions).

I played with and rode Nalle today, he had a really fun day!
He was abit unfocused when we first got to the arena but the second that I asked the first thing from him his ears turned to me and he stopped, "what do you want me to do?.
I had a real "aha"-moment riding, we did some freestyle bareback and played with sideways, transitions and back-up. As we did that I thought about some of the others horses I've been riding alot in my life and had a connection with and I realised that what I have with Nalle is so much bigger and more beautiful than anything before. I thought to myself that "oh my gosh, I wonder if he knows what a good horse he is" and then I realised that "aha, that's my job to tell him!". I have to make my horse understand and feel what an amazing horse he is and that he's perfect, sometimes you can read something and hear something hundreds of times but you need that "aha"-moment to really get it!